Condolence: I miss you everyday. I think about you every single day. my head and heart have not still wrapped around the fact you are not here anymore, maybe you are but i cannot see you, hear you, touch you, speak to you. you were taken too soon..we should’ve all had more time with you, because i wish more than anything that i would have..i was too young to have my eyes open wide enough to see what i was or what i will miss out on. i hope you know i love you more than i think you knew. i hope you are still there in the after life looking at me and hearing me and feeling me through energy. if that’s even possible but i hope it is. you are the one reason i do still think about God all the time. and i still don’t know what to believe, but you always told me to look up to him. and maybe sometime in the future my eyes can open up to that more too.. i wish i would’ve stayed on the phone longer every time..i’m so sorry. i always think about you. i always think about how much closer we would have gotten. but i do not blame you…it’s not your fault we both know that. i just wish i knew more, wish i had more time. life stopped for me that day when they sat me and dakota down at the kitchen table during the day and told us..that you were gone. i’ll never forget how i felt in that moment. that fist of thumbtacks and stones that hit my heart and my stomach. i dont even think i was thinking in that moment, just feeling everything but nothing at the same time. i was so young, still at dads house, not knowing anything about myself, i was a ball of confusion and fear and pain, and you were right about everything you said about dad. as much as it hurts i’m glad you were right… i wish you could’ve kicked it longer at least until i graduate. i still haven’t but soon. i have yearned for you everyday the past 4 years. i get constant reminders of you, and you will always live on in memory. even if i do forget your voice and touch. you’re always going to be with me. i’ll never stop missing you or thinking about you. i can barely type because of the tears, i can barely even see the phone….i love you so much mamaw. oh how i wish this was a text message that you will see and reply to…i love you Mamaw Kaye.

Condolence: You will be missed my friend and neighbor,25 years of knowing you has been a blessing. Fly with the Angels.